Just as the phoenix bird rises from the ashes, attains strength and renews itself, the author Lipin Raj M.P uncovers the flesh and blood of his life through his memoir, A Phoenix With Broken Wings; in which he narrates how gained the strength and follow his dreams despite the fact that all he had was a pair of broken wings to soar high in life.
From the very beginning, the author describes his strong passion for creative writing and civil services, clearly visible in his interest in sending stories to magazines and at an instance keeping himself in the darkness and sending his own story under the pen name Rajesh; active participation in various competitions even wen he was going through a rough patch in life. He also narrates the incident of the uninvited fate that took over the eyesight of one of his eyes, which had a drastic impact in the rest of
his life in the form of various humiliations. Even though those thorns resulted in lots of wounds in his heart, he was able to collect all those thorns and utilize it as a catalyst to burn the fire of his dreams in his heart. He was not at all ready to lose to fate and therefore practiced several backup plans to strive in case his vision leaves him completely.
Fate was only able to take over his vision but not his insight. His life, in his own words was ‘journey of a backbencher to a civil servant’ and he also states that ‘his life was something which was moulded by his teachers’ and also mentions some of his teachers who played a key role in shaping him. The plight of a student who lacked suitable advice due to the backwardness of his village and several other reasons is also depicted. However, certain people whom he came across were able to guide him better; including the shopkeeper who had directed him to pursue his BA in Mar Ivanios College. The book also portrays the efforts put in by the author in order to master Mathematics which always puzzled him.
Through people and incidents that he encountered, he felt the pain one has to bear that forced him to
make decisions like not to allow the practice of publicly notifying the details of financial aid made for students at least in the felicitation programmes he attended. There was also a bold move from
his side in the file of an RTI application to help one from his village just after the RTI was enacted.
Those activities he engaged to meet the two ends of his life had made him take tough decisions such as joining a bank rather than do his studies in Jamia Millia, the hands that pampered the letters had then moved to handling numbers in the bank. However, he never regretted his decisions. He rather loved it and went in search of the very next way forward.
Even in those hectic schedules in the bank, the fire in the heart didn’t allow him to rest, but persuaded him to throw out negative thoughts, bring in positive vibes and prepare for civil service and conquer his dream of becoming a civil servant. Towards the end of his book, he puts forward some of the realities which were different from the dreams of his life and thereby stating that ‘apart from the dreams we focus, we must also admit the realities in life that we are going through.’ The author also asks his readers to learn building their own possibilities from the infinite possibilities. His path from a boy with colourful dreams to a civil servant, was made of numerous thrones and stones. But unlike others who will feel desperate about the tough path one has to cover, he was able to climb up patiently on the stones in his way; which also stirs up the minds of readers, helps them to grab enough courage and motivates them to proclaim, “I am also able to conquer my dreams and leave my footprints behind” and finally to enact this proclamation in their own life.